But hell yeah, I did it !

You know, I have always thought that..
going abroad for studies means I will be stuck in this one place for a period of time.
Like to study every freaking day and all I do is go to classes, back home, cook dinner and sleep.
But apparently, I was wrong. Or should I put it this way,
the situation has proved me wrong.

This year itself I have traveled around / in and out of Australia for 7 times, in total.
Which equivalent to 14 times flying on flights whereby I have to say..
the less favourable airline that I have fly with would be Royal Brunei Airlines.
Yes. It may be the cheapest among premium airlines available around but I have to say,
the transit period in between actually was the one that kills me the most.
I shall not get to the ranting part about Royal Brunei because it will take forever.

Anyway, for being able to fly for 7 times even though its a Uni year for me,
I would like to thank my parents for all that happened.
Without them I wouldn’t be able to travel to places that I wanted to.
And oh, my parents are the cutest I tell you.
Mum would always text me before I fly reminding me to take my passports and etc.
On the other hand, dad would always call me..regardless before departing or upon arrival all the time.
I don’t know why he does that but he just do.
I reckon he forgets that international roaming is expensive,
And when I pick up his call, I would be charged as well and its a boom I kid you not.

But yeah, I guess dad just wants to check to see if I am fine.
Now I totally get the meaning when they say, no matter how old we grow,
We will always be the little baby in the eyes of our parents.

Till then, I would be back to blog again about my trip back home for 3 weeks..
My recent Taiwan trip and of course, my Brunei review as well.
Stay tuned people. Cheerios. 

To be honest, I am pretty proud of where I stand right now even after what had happened.
I guess its true when they say it will all get better in time.
Things changes. But I reckon things always changes for good & never for bad.
For example, in JUST ONE YEAR I had my hair coloured 4 times (typically me).
From copper brown – red – black – blonde highlights.

I’ve always been a hair colour fanatic and it has been such a while since I had black hair.
Probably the last time I had was say…  back in 2007?
Reasons for having black hair when I am in Australia is because mum reckons hairdo here is expensive.
Which is true, and that is why I have been really patient with my black hair for a couple of months,
until it reaches my boiling point that I decided to get some highlights.
Now I definitely feel like myself once more, the good old me ♥

Sometimes looking into the past really brings smile to my face.
The kind of memories that was once the reason of who I am today, regardless good or bad,
is definitely there to guide me of every steps that I’m about to take in the coming days.
One, which has totally changed my perspectives and left an impact in my life,
was dating him, the malay-chinese dude which I never thought I would ever get together with.

I have never officially disclose this relationship to the public before but yeah,
I choose to share this time because I want people to realize,
race should not be an issue that stops two person to get to know each other better.
Well, I used to be that kind of girl that could easily mix around different races of friends,
but to date one, was never an option or idea to me. NEVER, I repeat.
Its not that I am racist but let’s just put it this way, I just couldn’t be bothered.
But everything changed the day I met him, lets just refer him as M shall we?

M is a close friend’s friend and we knew each other through just a random conversation.
I was asking my friends some random opinions about piercing and this is where he chirped in.
I was like, okay.. how random. So since then, we both talked non-stop about more random stuffs.
It was really cute that moment as both of us were just plain speaking english.
As he wasn’t sure if I do speak malay or not so yeah, it was english all the way.
Then through spending so much time, I found out he comes from a parentage of chinese dad & malay mum.
I find this interesting enough and what surprise me more, is he speaks cantonese & mandarin as well.
Despite the fact that I speak pretty well malay, we mix around with our languages a lot.
This is where we have stepped into the comfort zone.

What do I mean by comfort zone?  It’s a zone where I could be myself whenever I am with him.
People always have the perception..
how do we even get along so well when he is a typical malay & I am a typical chinese?
Well, thankfully the both of us are not of the typical kind.
We do know a lot of each other’s culture and lingua franca.
So yeah, whenever I am with him, I always forget the fact that he is a malay speaking dude,
because I take him as himself, a person that I could casually have conversation and feel comfortably with.
The same goes to him so the communication part wasn’t a barrier for us at all.

We got together and he never fails to make me the happiest girl alive everyday.
I adore the way he can be caring, casual and straight to the point at the same time.
As in, he is not those typical mushy guys who goes “I love you”  &  “you are the best” every minute.
When he feels thing is not right, he would tell me and this is the kind of honesty that every man should have.
Not by telling your girlfriend her dress is pretty even if you think its not, like dude seriously -________-

As you can see, I am pretty unreasonable back then and I do admit, I was one.
Because whenever he doesn’t pick up my calls or reply my texts in a time duration, I’ll get really mad.
Since M is studying in LimKokWing at Cyberjaya & I was in Taylor’s in PJ, we are both rather far apart.
So most of the time, the cellphone do the talking that keeps us company.
And worse still, his family lives in Shanghai so he goes back really often to visit them.
Including the fact that he loves travelling so he spent most of his time abroad.
Thus, at this point – it was Skype and e-mails that do the talking most of the time.
It was pretty frustrating to be away from each other at that point.
We were away from each other during Christmas, New Year Eve with almost 2 months altogether.

This distance apart thingy made us argue alot, like I am not even joking when I say A LOT.
For the littlest things from him falling asleep while waiting for me to go online or something he said,
I take everything to offend and I’ll be so frustrated because he is no where nearby.
All I could do is scream into my pillow to chill myself out.

Like whenever I get mad at him, of course he gets mad as well.
But no matter how mad he is with me, he still take the initiative to talk things out with me nicely.
So yes, here it goes again. I am happily fed with his pampering whenever we argue,
and it always works because I couldn’t stand being angry with him for long too.
Also I have to admit, arguing is such a tiring activity.

After close to 2 months he is away, finally he is back to Malaysia.
But with another new hobby of his that I didn’t much fancy about.
He got into a new addiction of riding fixies and he does that every night, from 12am onwards.
Look. I am completely fine with him having a new hobby,
I mean you can never stop a guy from liking something such as cars, Manchester United and etc.
But one thing about this new hobby is its pretty dangerous.
Riding fixies late at night on the street is one, and kept falling from the bike is one.
I was worried whenever he goes on a riding session but what more can I say?

We constantly argue whenever he mention about going for a riding session.
Yes, so the argument never did ended..
yet it continues from him being abroad at first and now, his new hobby.
So yeah, it finally came to the day when we goes our own way.
No more talking, no more seeing and no more knowing about each other since then.
Funny how we could be so clingy in the beginning and then now, we are total strangers.
Good thing was, we don’t live near each other nor do we study close to each other.

My point of writing this is not to rant about my previous crappy relationship,
but because I am trying to prove that its not because of the race issue that we couldn’t be together.
Like I mentioned, it was because of his interests and distance that cause our arguments in the first place.
I despise the fact that whenever I tell people, I have broken up with him,
Most people would tell me,

” Its okay, you didn’t lose anything. He is still a malay and you both won’t go anywhere anyway. “

What’s with him being a malay? Just because in Malaysia, we have to convert into Muslim if we were to marry one.
I don’t think its a big deal if you really could live comfortably with that particular person.
Religion, on the other hand is just a guidance to life and I believe that every religion teaches the same thing.
It is really, very much up to us to interpret and practice it into our daily’s.
I have to admit I was upset when things was over between us,
but yeah. It wasn’t hatred that I had for him but instead it was all good old memories to learn from ♥

                                       Never regret anything, as once it was what you wanted.

Very obvious from the title,
Its Christmas today and here I am to wish everyone a Merry Merry Christmas! ♥
Especially to my family dearest and friends who is reading this.
So yeah, this is my first ever Christmas away from home.
Feeling slightly depress in the beginning knowing that I will be going through this day away from close ones,
but I managed to pull through by telling myself that this is just another ordinary day.
Oh and I’d honey ham for dinner on Christmas Eve and that is more than enough to keep me satisfied.

One very awesome thing about spending Christmas in Melbourne would be – the SHOPPING!
Most shopping malls extended their trading hours,
Say like Bourke St Mall operates until midnight and Chadstone had 24 hours shopping from 23rd – 24th.
Isn’t that awesome enough? Like even in Malaysia there is no such thing as 24 hours shopping.
With all the 50 – 70% discount pasted almost everywhere,
I really couldn’t resist such temptation and there I go, loosing myself once more.

                                                     Bourke St Mall in the afternoon

                                              Bourke St Mall at night

Like the other day, I managed to get myself a summer dress for just 2AUD.
Yes. You didn’t hear me wrong, 2AUD I kid you not.
I was surprise and even the cashier himself was surprise with the price he scanned.
Also, from just 3 pairs of footwear that I brought over to Australia in February,
now I am having 16 pairs of shoes/sandals/boots/sneakers/heels altogether.
I am so running out of space to store my shoes now  -_________-

Oh and check this out.
I never fell in love with a ring so much like I was with this Swarovski Match Ring.

I kept walking in and out of Swarovski to check this baby out all the time when I go out for shopping.
And at the same time, mummy dearest bought lil’ sista Swarovski charm bracelet as Christmas gift.
The irony. I wish I was back at home now to be pampered like a kid as well.
But thinking about it…
I am so excited that I will be going home for Chinese New Year in less than a month time!
Yays. Gonna be home after one whole year for 3 weeks to rejuvenate & then back to Melbourne again.

I dare say, life can be challenging at times.
I see changes. Not drastic one of course but changes on how I see the world and of plans that I have in life.
Right after I finish my studies in small town Geelong, I moved over to the big city of Melbourne.
Moved into a double storey house to live with total strangers who now happen to be my best housemates ever.
They are really nice people and to be honest, I feel so secured living with them.

                                       Yes, I have that many stuffs & I hate moving that it kills.

                         I love my bed which I could roll about and cuddle in most of the time.

                      Watching my all time favourite – Family guy & herbal drinks daily for company.

                           And this is the sign that I see everyday (near the tram stop at home),
                                         never fail to remind me that I’m originally from Geelong.

And ever since stepping into the working world, I realized a lot of things.
But I am not going to talk about those damn shits because it would take days for me to wrap things up.
I’ll just simplify everything into one phrase, “its a dog eat dog world out there”.
Everyone is selfish and its up to me, myself and I to work my way up if I want to succeed.
I reckon this is a major shock for me as I’ve always think that people are being nice because they are REALLY nice.
And I am not shy to admit that I have broke down a few times because of shits like this.
I am so glad my family (especially my dad who has seen the worst of the working world) was there to guide me.
We, at least has to be betrayed once to learn the real lesson and to stay tough on the arena.
Damn. I really wish I was back in university again. Time machine, anyone?

But yeah, aside from all those unnecessary craps. I still do spend good times around.
Please don’t think that I am such sad bitch that cry everyday ANYMORE because there is no point of doing so.
I’ll cry, for a couple of minutes and then move on to do something to fix the problem.
Because I know, nobody can help me but myself. Like really.
So besides shopping (my top favourite thing to do), I do spend quality time with the mates.
Wei Guan use to be my hangout buddy but since he is back to Malaysia for the summer,
I am most of the time, spending hours laughing at lame jokes and insulting people with Marcus.

Oh, and we drink quite frequently. Like it is sort of a thingy we do or reason for us to get together once in a while.
Clubbing and bar hopping.. no longer strangers to these.
I’ve always loved the fact that we are a bunch of people that could just do anything together.
Reasons why I love ‘em is plain because,
we are close enough that getting embarrassed in front of each other is not a problem at all.
Cheers to the 8 years of friendship (except for Marcus, maybe lesser) that we had! ♥

You know. Like how when you were younger,
all you ever do was constantly buying new outfits for your barbie dolls?
I don’t know about you girls out there..
But I do remember bugging my mum to buy me more barbie outfits all the time.
I would almost change my barbie dolls’ outfits EVERY SINGLE DAY.
Don’t ask me why, but yeah. Its like a girly thingy I reckon?
Or maybe it’s an obsession thingy? Hmm. I wonder.

Anyway, now that I’m all grown up.
It would be a little freaky if I say I still sleep with my barbie dolls and stuffs right?
Well. Yes, I don’t so don’t judge me!
I am very much of a gadget person at the moment.
Pretty blessed to be having the best of both world (from Blackberry to Apple products).
So yeah. Just like how I adore my barbie dolls when I was younger,
I am constantly on the hunt for cute and attractive covers for my gadgets.

It may seems like I am spending heaps of money buying these accessories.
But to be honest, all this doesn’t really cost me much.
I am a pretty thrifty person myself so yeah, I do go for cheap goodies.
Oh wait. Let me re-phrase that.

Cheap and awesome goodies to be exact!

#1  This is one of my personal favourite combination ♥
The orange teddy bear cover with my modified pink-purple Blackberry casing.
I know this actually makes my Blackberry looking like a toy instead of a smartphone,
But heck. Who cares?  It still functions like every other normal Blackberry.

#2  The comic strips BB cover.
The characters are all reasonably cute, don’t you think so?
Not too childish and not too old. Just perfect!

#3  The leopard print BB cover.
Yes, I am very much a leopard print lover.
I have a leopard print pen, umbrella, skirts, leggings and etc.

#4  The slipper design BB cover.
My cousin got me this cover from one of her holiday trips.
Its pretty unique actually but this cover doesn’t come handy though,
like its not that convenient to keep it in the pocket and stuffs.
But yeah, still love it. Because it stands out from the others.

#5  The purple bunny iTouch cover.
How often do you get bunny cover for iTouch?
I know there is tons out there for iPhone but yeah,
I was so excited when I found this. Its so adorable and its purple in colour.
Best part is, it comes with a fluffy tail. Totally love it!

#6  The simplicity green-purple iTouch cover.
Not much to comment on this cover except for its super comfy when you hold your gadget.
Reason being its a rubber cover so yeah, it wouldn’t easily slip off from your grasp.

#7  The Angry bird iTouch cover.
Since everyone is so into Angry Bird these days (including my mum. Yes, UNBELIEVABLE),
I have decided to blend in as well and got myself a cute Angry bird cover.

#8  Tadaa! My gadgets all dressed up.
Well, except for the iPod Classic because all you could get is just plain coloured covers.
I’ve tried searching up and down for designed covers for the Classic but they are no where to be found.
So if anyone out there knows where I could get it, don’t hesitate to hit me up ya.
We would totally be best friends if you do. HAHA.

There are actually more covers that I have besides those above,
But let’s just be frank. I am just too lazy to post every single of them up.
So yeah. I pick to post only the cute ones.

Would definitely go back there again! ♥
Maybe with my parents when they are over for my graduation.
Oh and Sydney as well, can’t stop thinking about that awesome harbour place there.

The first agenda that took place when I arrived Adelaide was shopping and then clubbing with the girls.
Club Heaven was not too bad, pretty much enjoyed myself most at the R&B upstairs.

Then the next day, I met up with the bunch for Glenelg beach and BBQ.
Love the beach there in Adelaide. They have such soft sands and pretty scenery.
And the sunset is so pretty I kid you not. Perfect for a getaway.
I also saw tons of cute puppies and doggies on the beach.
Uber CUTEEEEE!

Found my love in Adelaide as well, yes  its Shisha!
Barely could find this around in Melbourne city though.
Or is it because I didn’t put that much effort in looking for it?
Melbournians, if any of you know there is awesome places for Shisha in the city or about,
do recommend and share with me aites.

So day three is spent with Miss Stephanie, whom I didn’t hang out before with back in Taylor’s but yeah,
managed to get close and connected via technology.
We went to German Town (Hahndorf) and had awesome Germany food and hot chocolate.
Belgium Milk Chocolate and chocolate macaroons, can you IMAGINE THAT?
Awesome to the max. Its really chocolateeyyy.

Spend my last day meeting up with them girls, Shinta and Cicilia.
It has been such a long while since we last met as we used to hangout pretty often back in college,
So yeah. It was a must to meet up! And I totally had fun catchin up with them.
We went to the aboriginal’s museum though, and for a split second – I am doing something like a tourist.
Oh and we had AB as well, the big chunk of meat that is topped with fries and sauces.
Yummmylicious and its a must try if you are over to Adelaide.

Gonna miss them girls. I wonder when will it be again until we meet?
Since this might be the last time we can eat and chat together,
as you girls will head back to Indonesia after studies and etc.

And on the last night I was in Adelaide,
we had some sort of a farewell dinner for me at this Indian restaurant with the entire Taylor’s buddies.

I have to say – Adelaide was awesome.
And once again, I managed to spend my break doing something productive.
South Australia.. you have definitely treated me well.
Thanks again girls, for your awesome hospitality and all.

Next up on the list – Gold Coast in October.
Definitely so looking forward for this one, excited much!

THANK YOU.

So yeah. I am very muthafuckin annoyed right now.
Not going to go in depth into what the whole situation is but yes,
I am annoyed to the point I feel like screaming into my pillow right now.
Like seriously, how shallow can a person be? I wonder.

我真的想问你,
你真的认为我会做出这样的事情吗?
老實說, 我開始有點生氣.
因為你到處去講我們的私事,
你有沒有想過這樣做會傷害我們兩個?
到處去跟別人說我們的事情是沒有意義的,
過去的已經過去了!

不是我不想承認過去的錯誤,
因為我知道到處說也不會有什麼改變的.
這就是為什麼我自己把這個吞下來去克服,
而不像你到處搧風點火.
你朋友威脅我那就是我害怕的原因.
这种情况发生，因为就是你不当的处理啊!

好，或許我不該評斷..
這可能就是你的表達方式吧.
當你講那些事時,
你有考慮過後果嗎?
我想没有吧..
那就是为什么现在会有这样的情况啦！

畢竟事情都發生一個月了,
那些事也不在重要了.
我必須承認, 我仍偶爾想起你.
但那只發生在我想起那些甜美回憶.
大部分的時間, 我只想起你最後對我說的那句,

” I don’t fucking care. “

那,你為什麼去跟你朋友說我恨中國仔?
我敢發誓我並沒有說那些話!
那些是你欲加於我的話,
為了使我再你朋友眼中變成一個壞人.
你就是擅長於此,不是嗎?
讓你自己看起來像受害者,
而全部的措都歸咎於我.
我對自己說”沒關係”,
因為那真的都是我傷害你在先.

但今天發生的事件是真的是非常不能容忍的!
你怎麼會認為我破壞你的車?
你想想看,
要是能做我早就做了, 怎會等到現在?!
我真的不懂你怎麼那麼容易受朋友煽動,
就單單憑著他們的話你就斷定是我做的.

我不怪他們.
他們並不了解我, 只是透過你敘述來評斷我,
但我確信你更了解我..
為什麼還這麼說呢?

唉,我今天的事情真的無言.
我真的不知道如何反應.
將來想起來能被你懷疑是多麼 “幸運” 阿!

I seriously have better things to look forward to in life.
I am having my finals right now because I am on assignments based,
Unlike you, this is my last semester and then I am done with degree so I can’t afford to flunk it.
And of course, I definitely don’t want to fail because,
Re-taking my subjects would mean I have to come back to Deakin Waurn Ponds,
and that is not something that I am looking forward to do so yeah.

I am done ranting and wow,
didn’t know I could blabber that amount of chinese words out when I am pissed.
Oh well, guess I’ve learned on the way afterall.
Done for today, done for tonight and I am DONE with this shit.
Not going to talk nor mention about this shit anymore man.

Such a drainer,
I rather keep my energy thinking about how to construct better essay for my assignments.
Life is such a drama, and especially mines.
I wonder should I just love them for the experience or hate them for the disaster they brought?
I wonder. I really do.

Was trying to be productive that I got myself out of my room to the Uni’s lab,
yet I am still slacking and procrastinating like a bitch doing nothing related to studies.
Damn. I need to get my mind straight into my assignments.
Lucky me, I don’t have final exams to sit but doing assignments isn’t anyhow easy as well.
An essay could take up to 50 percent and would you not worry that you’ll do wrong?
Well, I do. Very much afraid that I will fuck up my last semester though.
I want to graduate with a degree of course, especially when I am left with just 3 weeks to go.

Imagine that. I am going to graduate with a degree at the age of 21.
Wow. How time flies that it seems like just yesterday I was excited to enter college.
And here I am, about to graduate with a degree. Like seriously, this is a wow factor.

Oh and I randomly bumped into some quotes THAT IS SO TRUE,
yet sarcastically funny & random in a way.

If I could turn back the hands of time,
I swear I never wanna cross that line.
I should of kept it between us but no I went and told the whole world how I feel and oh,
So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes.
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever,
Promise that I’m gonna try.

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it is time that I learnt to.
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved.
This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it.
I guess karma comes back around cause now I’m the one that is hurting.
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken,
So don’t tell me you can’t forgive me,
Cause NOBODY’S PERFECT.